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četvrtak, 09.02.2012.

Analiziram sebe

Pouzdanost počinje s odgovornošću i oboje ima korijene u disciplini. Istraživanje, detalji, analiziranje su po mom mišljenju razumne stvari, a možda i griješim. Volim učiti, volim slušati sve obožavam analizirati sve do najsitnijeg detalja i ponekad mi se čini da u tome znam pretjerati, ali detaljna analiza svega pa i mene same mi pomaže da mi mozak ne zahrđa.
Volim se družiti s ljudima, ali u posljednjih dva mjeseca komuniciram sa zidovima jer sam sama usprkos što imam sina, ali on kada stigne iz škole zabije se u sobu i bulji u kompjuter tako da koji puta umjesto da spava u krevetu spava na radnom stolu i moram ga moliti da se presvuče i legne u krevet.
U posljednje vrijeme sama sebe uhvatim kako pričam sama sa sobom i počela sam analizirati sebe, te sam došla do zaključka da su to prvi znakovi pred ludilo.
Pitam se dali sam odgovorna, radim li ispravno ili sve radim naopako, jer sam se naopako rodila.
Sama sam, sama, a to jako boli. Znam sada će mi mnogi reći „nisi jedina ima takvih još“, znam da ima i zato mi je još teže shvatiti ovu klisku stepenicu života.


prijevod

Reliability starts with the company and both have roots in the discipline. The study, details, analysis, in my opinion a reasonable thing, and maybe I'm wrong. I love to teach, I love to listen to everything I love to analyze everything to the minutest detail, and sometimes it seems to me that I go overboard, but a detailed analysis of everything including my own helps me that my brain is getting rusty.
I like to hang out with people, but in the last two months of communicating with the walls because I was alone in spite of what I have a son, but when he arrives from school crashes into the room and staring at the computer so that way instead of sleeping in bed asleep at the desk and I ask him to change his clothes and lie down in bed.
Lately I find myself to talk with myself and I started analyzing myself, and I came to the conclusion that these are the first signs of madness.
I wonder whether I am responsible, I do it all right or do wrong, because I was born upside down.
I am alone, alone, and it really hurts. Now I know many will say "you only have those yet," I know there, so I was even more difficult to grasp this slippery step of life.